i want to die.
i hate being home, i hate being at school. my friends are all single serving, in the most literal sense ever. i have basically no one.

and you are suffocating me.
just sayin'

i can't go anywhere, i can't do anything.

i miss cutting.

i'm trying not to, but like. i feel SO bad right now and i can't even let it out in the only way i know how to.
i feel like my head's gonna explode.

you don't even know how fucking hard it is. and i'm not fucking crazy.

i just want it to stop hurting. that's all i want.

you can fuck up your life all you fucking want because I DON'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE.

brand new is my favorite band. forever and ever and everrrr. <3

i love how i only post an entry like once a month, or less.

i don't usually have anything to write.

i deleted some of my entries, because my grandma went through my computer and found my lj and it said some pretty not nice things about her. and stuff. and then she freaked out and cried a lot and deleted them and took my computer away. so now i have like, 3 entries. lol idk, i just cant ever figure out something to saaaaay. and when i do its always whiny and stupid.

but yeah. i went to key west last week. it was pretty awesome. i got an awesome tan. :) and i had my first rum runner. (it was sooooo delicious, omfg. like ryland. "delicious!" srsly.) 

and i'm still kinda in shock about the whole patd breaking up thing. since i was on vacation i didn't really hear about it until like, saturday last week. and i was just like ":oooooooooooooooo" and moping the whole day. but i'm kinda getting used to the idea. and oh glory sounds freakin' amazing, so that made me a little happy. you know. :D but i'm still majorly pissed off at ryan and jon. just, idk. lots of resentment. but i am loving brendon and spencer more than ever :D and brencer is my new OTP. srsly.

aaaaaaand. there's not really much else. i am a very boring and unexciting person. suck my diiiiick!

has been really gay so farrr!
i haven't done anything except hand out with my cousin ashton, who is 12, because her mom had to go out of town for a bit for some reason. IDK. and she stayed at my house for 3 days, so i couldn't do like, anything. we walked to stop & go and pigged out on candy, and watched anchorman and monster in law and wall-e and the ring.. and ran outside in the rain in white t-shirts. lolol

but i wanna goooo somewhere. like, wet n wild or islands of adventure or BUSCH GARDENS!!! good god, that place is like my second home. fo srs. shiekra is amazing. actually, all of the roller coasters are fucking fantastic. :D

i just don't like being stuck in my houseee. i might go to the movies later.
that'll be like, the highlight of this whole week.

shame.

i think i like school.
just a bit.

:)